what the fuck am I doing so wrong?
I don’t get it.

There’s just so much I want to say to you. so many things I need to get off my chest. & So much things I wanna ask you. I wanna know how did we get here? What happened? …
This whole situation is so overwhelming because it’s just getting others involved, I miss when it was just me & you .. You don’t know what I’d do just to go back in time , take away everything that brought us here.
& So now I’m sitting here. Confused if I’m in a position to talk to you .. Or confused if I should just let you go..

The strength is takes to leave, is the same amount I need to stay .

If a heart break is anything remotely close to how I feel right now.. I don’t think I could handle it.
try your best, you fall short.
Blaming yourself, blaming them.
Fact still remains that things will NEVER be the same ..

“Appetite for love but I scrape the plate. Cause you’re the biggest false move that I will ever make” - Matthew Sean Leon.

Up and downs, but WE know .
That’s all that matters.

I’m tired of feeling like I failed. I’m tired of feeling like you’ll never understand. No matter how much I try to explain..you don’t get it. You don’t. It drives me crazy because I want nothing more than to be happy. I keep thinking things will get better and if anything they’re getting worse. Comfortable. Not making any changes and I question you, I question myself every day. What did I do so wrong? What happened? I want to give up so bad. But I don’t, because I may regret it. This circle I can’t escape … Why me man? Why me?

Its beyond words I could ever express. The anger, the confusion.
What am I doing to myself…?
Why why why ..
I’m fuckin up.